I was fifteen when my best friend bullied me. He would tell me things like “Kill yourself!” and “No one would miss you!” everyday for six months. I was slut shammed. To make it worse, he had “followers” that joined in on the bullying. The sad thing was no one stopped him and more importantly, no one helped me. I felt so alone one day that I came incredibly close to actually killing myself. I stopped myself though because I realized if I had killed myself, I would have given my bully what he had wanted.
Before this experience I believed suicide was selfish. It was not until I was suffering from depression that I realized what suicide really meant to the victim. The victim’s thoughts are nothing like “oh I’m going to end my life and let my family and friends suffer” but they are more like “I’m so alone” and “there’s no point to living anymore because I hate myself all the time” or “No one would miss me if I was gone." Although these thoughts are in most cases not true to friends and family of the victim, that’s not what the victim believes. Depression can affect a person so badly... to the point where they don’t want to live anymore. I know because I was almost one of them.
If you know anyone who is thinking about suicide or having any of these thoughts the first thing you can do is tell them that THEY ARE NOT ALONE. Tell them you are here for them and that you want them here. Get them help. Tell someone. Do something because you never know what you do or say can save someone’s life.
- Victim of Bullying